December 19, 2009

Sweet Dreams

I had a weird dream last night.

First of all, I had a white dad and a little sister, when I'm clearly Korean and I only have brothers in real life. In my dream, there were evil men who were trying to kill my family because apparently my dad knew some crazy dark secrets. In their attempt to kill us, the men set fire to our house when we were all asleep. Somehow, I woke up and sensed that something was wrong, so I grabbed my sister and we escaped from our house through a secret passageway in our basement. The passageway took us to a lake and from there, we rode a raft to the other side. I can't remember exactly what happened next, but I know that the men caught up to us and I spent the rest of my dream running for my life with my sister.

What the heck?! Dreams are weird. I wish I could interpret them because I spend a lot of time thinking about them throughout the day.

December 7, 2009

Reformatting my life

I reformatted my laptop by myself and I must admit, I'm quite proud of myself.

I'm not that computer savvy when it comes to fixing problems... I don't even know what "troubleshooting" means. Usually when I run into problems I just panic and ask one of my brothers to help me out. Although I'm good at using programs like Adobe Photoshop, Illustrator, and the like, I know nothing about computers themselves.

I think I handle problems in real life like the way I handle my computer problems. When problems arise, I hardly ever try to fix them myself because a)I don't know how to and b)quite frankly, I'm lazy. I need to start doing things on my own and to break out of my comfort zone. Last night when I was attempting to reformat my computer, I had no idea what I was doing, but I kept going. It felt like I was in new territory, but you know what, now I know how to do it by myself and it's a useful tool to have in the future.

I need to start facing my problems head on. I need to stop thinking that I'm inadequate and believe that I can do many things on my own. I need to acknowledge God in my life before all things so I can say with faith,
The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
I need to trust Him and Him alone.